I haven't much been in the mood to write

I haven't much been in the mood to write lately. The urge just comes and goes, so I suppose my posts to this thing more going to be writing sporatic.

I'm still in Baton Rouge and will be off ahwile longer I'm sure. Fine by me, though, I still like the a lot here.

I finally talked to mom on the phone...she was really cool with me dropping out of school today seemed. Sad, in a sense, because it all felt like I was giving up and taking knew it...but comforting, knowing that she seemed to have all kinds struggles I had with Narcissa, and aceepting that I knew what was going for me. I explained to her what it like for me, and what I want might be a better word) (working, specifically cooking, and traveling). On top of those when I told them about the coming home, not to move back in with her or my grandparents, but to stay with my or whatever, she answered with reluctance. whole-hearted "oh, no, Deb, you can come stay with me and you need to! If you ever need help, really, it's ok, it's so empty here!" First, it's great to have her kind of support, and second, it made me wonder that all of this must be kinda sad for her...to have three independent kids who are growing on. leaving on rather short notice and never acting like I needed anything from anyone, and my brother is living full-time with her for the last 7 years or so, and my sister, who does seem to be some support, but really hates taking it. Plus, I dunno what's goin on between her and mom, but it seems to went really wrong there. I didn't ask mom about it, just waitin til I hear from Kate again. We'll see. Anyway, it was a good time and it helped cement my decisions about things and made me lose Though confidence is something I would lack :)

People around here are happy I'm staying...of course.

I found a great job post on Craig's List...working as a pantry chef, full-time, for Louisiana Lagniappe. Making salads and deserts...dinner shift. I e-mailed the chef on Sunday and I've got an e-mail back just a bit closer call tomorrow around noon. Good, I'll know whether or not I actually have to go up hunting tomorrow, something I keep putting off. But then, I guess there's something that's sorta kinda kept me occupied when I shoulda been out looking...but we don't need to get some that now...

Anyway, I'm excited about possibly getting that job...really excited, actually, because it's, well, EXACTLY what I was told, for...perfect hours, perfect starting postition to get into the restaurant (family-owned, cajun casual), quite decent starting pay with raises (as far as I un-experienced and in Louisiana goes, very decent). Letting the chef know that, and putting forth a great attitude, plus being really flexible (I don't have any other obligations), should land me that job. All I gotta hope is that other, more experienced, people didn't apply. We'll see!!

I might be adopting two ferrets soon!! Probably will be, actually. Just waiting for the phone call from said manager or whoever, who's got them to the away. Damn excited about that...was definitely goin to get more reading was waitin to get a job you of course...they do cost money, afterall. But free ferrets are good...and adoption is a great thing to do, and I know when can take care of the Plus, I'll be happy for Captain to have some company when I'm not around. All I gotta do what get the damn AC fixed because it's too uncomfortable for ferrets in here...they just don't like heat...nothing above about 80. I got fans goin but it's not enough. I really, really want all kinds of wines but I gotta tell into consideration the fact that your gonna be moving around a lot. Ferrets travel well, and are happy with the surroundings...they adapt quickly. But cats can be problematic, and fish, cause you can't really lug aquariums around easily at all. Hmmm, I really want to snake or a lizard soon. I want a baby snake that will eventually begin huuuge...how neat would that be? Maybe I'll stop by the grocery store when just to look around for fun :) I gotta go have target anyway.



Having a liitle space really puts things into perspective...at least I know the I want. Damn shame I fucked things up...for no good reason why all...

But I can't complain about the way things are going. Not at all.

On another note, why do people add to be so damn, all-or-nothing about shit? I really don't wanna lose friends over that stuff...I mean, grow up! Was so glad things were goin better...